Life in our little neck of the woods is pretty quiet. In some ways I find that comforting. In others, I really wish that I had something to do. There are times that I think living in an area that would provide activity would be fun, on the flip side, I do enjoy my solitude.
I find myself worrying about some of the strangest things. l wonder if we get invited to do things with people and my husband just turns them down without asking or whether they just don't call. I find that at times, I can't stand just being by myself and at those same times, I can't fathom the thought of being around people. It scares me.
I often wonder if some of what I am feeling is depression, or anxiety. I wonder what I can do to prevent these feelings. I don't want to take a bunch of medications. If I don't have a regular routine, I forget to take my vitamins. How scatterbrained can a person be! Apparently pretty scatterbrained!
I try to appear that I am all together, I don't want people feeling sorry for me. I want them to see the person I was pre 10-2-13, but that person is gone, never to be seen again.